I don’t want to hustle, neither achieve greatness. One, because hustling leads to burn out. Two, because greatness implies I’m not great in the present moment.
I also don’t want to think about reaching my full potential. Because thinking about it resulted in comparing myself to others.
So do I want to grow? The answer is yes, but in a different way.
A different way embraces the idea of working in the middle. The middle is neither fast or slow, but steady. It's neither great or bad but fulfilling.
I don’t want to hustle and go so fast that I lose track of where I’m going, why I do it, or who I serve. So fast that I start living under the delusion that I’m doing it for others when I’m just doing it for my ego.
What does this mean in tactical terms?
Maintain a Balanced Energy
Create habits that prevent low energy levels. Getting good sleep, eating healthy, drinking enough water, and exercising.
Stop getting caffeinated to overcompensate for what my body needs. Caffeine jacks up my energy and emotions which often results in losing interest for what I'm doing. In a blink of an eye, a task that requires concentration is no longer stimulating enough. In comparison, mindlessly browsing the web, watching videos, or checking social media sites becomes very tempting.
So in essence, the best state is when you feel even and balanced throughout the day. There are no high and lows, and there is no "prime time" to do your best work.
The wondering mind, spacing out, or procrastinating is the effect of bad habits. The more you do it, the harder it gets to stay focused.
The cure is to practice meditation. By sitting still, in silence, focusing on each breath, you can improve your concentration. You also learn how to spot and let go of distracting thoughts and desires.
Over time, developing your mindfulness will enable you to fully immerse with your work. You'll lose track of time, and feel satisfied and fulfilled with your progress.
Establish a Regular Practice
Mindful regular practice makes you better at what you do. It helps you understand your work in depth. It gives you the experience to do more in less time.
It’s a natural law that with a regular practice there is growth. But live to practice, and growth will be the cause of your happiness. Live for the results of your growth, and growth will be the cause of your suffering.